Monday, November 17, 2008

its always the case
during exams i so cant wait for it all to be over
but when it's over really i become so aimless
i was packing my room yesterday, a yearly routine i carry out before i go home
lil' jeremy fell asleep on my computer chair in a tortoise like position
haha he was heaps cute

now that i'm exam stress free
i tend to stress about other (maybe trivial) things
i guess 我是一個很需要被朋友需要的人
and i just can't feel that way here
growing older, friendships never are as pure as the good old days
people come and go all the time and its just hi and then goodbye
i cant seem to find a place where i can settle down properly
i guess city-hopping isnt doing me any good either...
before i can settle down and make some good friends,
i decide nah~this is not for me and i pull myself out of the place
i dont know how long this will continue
or where i'll end up
suddenly the future seems so bleak.

| Monday, November 17, 2008 |

bliss comes at a hefty price

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

how am i suppose to
to say that i'm the happiest i've ever been
yet also the most desolate i've ever been
to say that this happiness comes with an exorbitant price tag
a price that i cant afford, maybe not now, not yet
its slowly getting to me
and i find it all so hard to take in
there's a source of misery eroding the roots of my happiness
wringing all my blissful memories into drops of tears

i dont wish for my life to revolve around one single person
there are still tons that i wanna accomplish
how do i say
that maybe one day i will just walk away
so that i can do it all over again



next year.
come next year i will start anew.



2 papers down 1 more to go!

den is the silliest ever. he punctured his own tire with his keys which slipped outta his pocket when he got out the car. i wonder how that happened, but shit always happens to him. lol.
good thing his friend knew how to change tires so he didnt have to call RAA and could do his all nighter at uni. hrm it appears things arent going that well for him atm. his classmates were literally camping in the lab. with their sleeping bag and food supplies. god knows how many days they've not shaved or showered. i was studying for one of my papers in there the day before till 3am. gave me an insight into the lives of design students. heh. no wonder a fourth year student grew white hair. yikes.

| Wednesday, November 12, 2008 |